The Effort of Caring
The cat is sleeping on my mouse
So playing my video game
Would be a bit difficult
I should be working
But work is work
And the attempt exhausts me
It’s not about enjoyment
I actually like the work
I always do
But my brain just takes one look
And wanders away
After a week
A month
It is no longer a viable option
I just can’t bring myself to care
The same thing happened with school
And arts and crafts projects
And that time I wanted to become a carpenter
The effort of caring
Seems to be too much for me
I wish I had a better reason
A better excuse
An explanation
I’m sure I’m not the only one
There mu
i.
I detest the smell of
wet dirt and white lilies
on a sunday afternoon
because they remind me
of Death and his friends
and they're not the cool kids
on the block that I wanna be
involved with.
ii.
my poetry reeks
of unrequited love and
cosmic kisses
but I can’t help but wonder if
one day I’ll put my money
where my mouth is
and make those words
come true.
iii.
from the day I was
born till the day I die
I’ll have iron clad chains
shackled to my ankles
and a noose made
of dollar bills wrapped
around my neck.
iv.
sometimes I
wish I had a crystal ball
so that I could see
the path ahead of me
because sometimes
It contains a bit more than "Mom, dad, etc." because I think that's overused, but I wanted to make one for myself. I also need a new free box, so taking one for friends was getting a little old. The following people have been added to my family, including the ones who still seem as 'friends' to me. Not that that's a bad thing!!!
If you have a better idea at what you might be/a title you want, let me know and i'll mull it over/change it. x'D This was all done on a positive note, so please no one feel hurt by this! ;3;
My DA family:
Partner in crime: ~Mona-chopsis (https://www.deviantart.com/mona-chopsis)
Rival: :iconk0hai-r0yale:///:iconkairi-kohai:
Space twin: :icontalo
that the only thing i learned
from eating dinner at the table
was your opinions never matter
and it's better to be silent
than sorry, my Mother used to
box her ears in every time
i accidentally broke a biblical law
and what
if i confessed
that my sister is the one
my mother loves the best, even
when i came home with
certificates and commemorations
that never meant anything
in a Christian household
'cause i kissed another girl
in year 10 and the teacher
wrote an angry letter home
(and the girl eventually left
me alone anyway)
and what if i admitted
that the only thing i ever
learned in maths was how
to plot the angle of my
death and the r
it's fine, it's fine,
i'm fine, i'm okay.
you say this
with a shaky
disbelief in
the fabric
of your
esophagus.
the sadness
of the fallen
but still alive
slip through
the slits
in between
your teeth,
bewildered,
but not wild
your grey-green eyes
flash viridescent
in the leavings
of past petals.
but the root
of your fuse
is still intact
and you have not
lost your dynamite yet.
your heart is still
here and it's scary,
i know, but i also know
that it's not fine
and you're not okay,
but i love you anyway.
and i can't promise
that this will always
be this way,
but today i do.
tonight i do.
tomorrow i will.
and if whatever
universal force
dear sarah,
i wonder
if sometimes you can still feel the weight of your bed sheet
around your neck. heaven knows there were days i could count every thread.
last night i was cleaning up my desk, and i found the scissors
i used to crack my skin open four years ago
and when i went to throw them out, it felt like moving mountains
or graves. if you don’t know yet, you’ll learn that some types of grief
leave scars—some ghosts don’t know how to stay buried.
you will stumble through the rest of your life wondering if you will
one day forget how it feels to toe the edge of the cliff and turn the other way.
the answer is no
To put it shortly, I like drawing, and gaming, and having fun. I'd love if you guys could comment on my work - I'm always open to constructive critisism! :) Have a good day! My art blog: coldysartblog.tumblr.com My other ones: coldovyle.tumblr.com and protocoldy.tumblr.com
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Imagine Dragons
Favourite Games
too many to name but i'm particularly fond of Pokemon and Monster Hunter
I miss drawing my character, Coldy. Last time I did it was ages ago and I've improved since then.
But then again, I have a dragon study sketch and three other big dragons to finish >_>